I recently had a breakdown and now I have a lot of fear. I have a hard time with people, and frequently have panic attacks. I was wondering if you have any advice. I'm even reluctant to disclose to much information to you because I don't have a lot of trust and this is my first time writing to you.
I am sick and tired of having this flight response to life. Thank you for your time. -- Joan
Thank you for writing and for trusting enough to reach out in this way. You are still traveling through life with wounds from the past and have to decide now whether you will let your past define you, or whether you can accept a new identity in the present and future. This is a real choice that you and others can make at this time, since the available supports are present in a spiritual sense for you to shed your past identity and to embrace a freer and more whole life in God.
Though it is possible, it often does not feel like a simple matter to drop the past, for it involves establishing a new anchor of trust in the present. This is what will enable you to get past the fear that is so much coloring your life. You are afraid, because fear, as an energy, is moving through you in an intense way. Yet, there are other possible ways of living in the world when one has decided to learn to trust. The way to begin is with this decision, which, in itself, will begin to create a new energetic balance within you.
Trust in a spiritual sense is not based on what human beings do but on what God does. It is based on truth and on light - on the knowing of the Divine essence that lives within you even in the presence of fear. Once this knowing takes root, it begins to be stronger than the fear and over time becomes stronger and stronger if allowed to do so.
There are many ways, dear one, to begin to strengthen your spiritual anchoring to help make this possible. Writing to me is one of them. You might also wish to look at Pathways of Light which is filled with spiritual supports and see if anything there appeals to you. Please feel free to write again if you wish.
Know, too, despite your present state of emotion and the experiences you have lived through, that you are greatly loved. Blessings - Julie Redstone