Soul Purpose and the Collapse of the Old

Dear Julie,

I am a Light Worker who is having an impossible time with the new energy. 2008 was an awesome year when I went to school and became a Certified Hypnotherapist. I felt more peace, excitement, and love than ever before. And I was able to help a lot of people.

2009 was a complete "drop on my head" spiritually. No business, leaving the job I was in for 12 years and the "friends" that just didn't work for me, stagnation, etc.

I don't like my family or my friends anymore, and I can see situations and people for what they are, not what they pretend to be.

Using the "Mining the Askash" techniques of Kryon, I have completely healed myself, stopped my biological clock from aging any further (I just turned 56 and every day I look one year youinger than the day before), and connected to my Higher Self.

However, I am going through such a "dark night of the soul" and I cannot work with a system on Earth which offers only to pay pennies for my "million dollar skill set and services", in an economy where the cost of living has quadrupled!

All I can do every day to keep from losing my mind is two things: 1) go to the gym, work out and get into the water, and 2) listen to free downloads of channelled entities such as Kryon, Adamus, and The Group.

Of course, I am looking for employment again, but with a tremendous disadvantage: I see the environments for what they are, very, toxic. I know I am supposed to have a metaphysical mission similar to Steve and Barbara, Lee Carroll, Geoffrey and Linda Hoppe, and other Light Workers....just not happening!

Everywhere I go, people who don't know me see a "Light" and a "Power" they are attracted to...they see the Aura of a Light Worker. Ironically, it is still shining through me, although I feel like I am finished here!

Sorry for sounding negative, but I feel I need to get out of Southern California...the energy feels so stuck and so thick I can cut it with a knife.

Thank you Julie....please don't tell me that my vibration is not aligned with intent or what "I think" I want....I've had just about all the "New Age Guilt" I can take! If I was able to heal myself 100% of every disease I have ever had with my intent yet not generate business for my metaphysical company with the same intent, then could it be other people's free choice interferring with my intent?

Thanks, Beverly

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Dear One,

In this challenging time, it is important to hold onto your understanding of higher purpose, the purpose that your soul has chosen for this lifetime. Such a purpose may be different from or broader than the one you originally conceived. From this broader perspective, your path has not become de-railed, but rather is expanding in ways you cannot yet perceive to help you acquire skills other than those you have been using to be of maximum service. The use of your intent to create and of the power of thought to support this have been valuable assets in terms of the knowledge you have gained and the gifts you have been able to share with others. Yet there are additional attributes that are seeking balance within you, in order to prevent an overemphasis on one part of spiritual attainment while losing sight of others. From this perspective, you are not being impeded by obstacles coming from outside yourself. Rather, you are being shaped according to an inner plan so that you can expand your path of service.

While learning to manifest through intent and thought may be the life purpose for some, within your own soul plan for this lifetime, these need to be balanced by additional qualities of surrender, humility, and love. For these qualities to manifest, your own will has to recede into the background and other attitudes need to move into the foreground. The loss of your work and of the previous structure of your life in many respects serves this purpose.

You have acquired, beloved one, a good deal of spiritual knowledge from your Atlantean lifetimes and also from inner and outer guidance which has come to you over a long period of time. This guidance and the channelings you gravitate toward resonate with your inner attunement to the higher dimensions of light. Yet, this attunement and knowledge is not the totality of what the human journey is about. You have taken embodiment not only to teach but to learn, and out of this learning, to help others better.

Do not be discouraged because you feel like you no longer belong on this planet. This is a feeling that tends to surface as light grows stronger and the vibrational difference is more apparent between what is light-filled and what is not, what is within yourself and what is around you. While you acknowledge your connection with those in the higher realms and comfort yourself in this way, the true message of this time is about becoming a human being in an expanded sense, not leaving humanity.

Try to take this in if you can, with peace and compassion for the difficulties involved, and with the inner assurance that nothing is wrong in your spiritual growth or in your soul's plan for this embodiment. It is not operating according to the plan you conceived, that is the difficulty you face. Let go of that plan and see if you can expand into another which includes a broader picture of what your true path of service might be. Often, those who bring knowledge of the higher dimensions of light to the Earth have to become more grounded in their humanity to do so. Blessings, beloved one. Julie Redstone